You’re hoping you’re going to meet this girl, this simple, yet delightful girl who will leave you speechless, with dark hair, a shy smile, with a sparkle in her eyes that will hypnotize you, who will bring back to life all the thoughts you think you have forgotten, who will show you that life is nothing like you thought it is.
But you aren’t going to meet that girl. You’ll meet a normal girl, maybe one you already know. She won’t be anything like you imagined but something about her will wipe away those thoughts about the girl you think you should fall in love with. It’s not because of her eyes, or smile or the way she looks when she sees you, it’s because she knows what you were thinking and proves you that love doesn’t give you the person you want, but the one you need and you realise you never actually needed the one with a shy smile, dark hair and the sparkle in her eyes; you just needed the one who made you feel like you finally belong with someone in this world.
If there is a country that has committed unspeakable atrocities in the world, it is the United States of America. They don’t care for human beings.
Nelson Mandela on the US invasion of Iraq
This is the Mandela that I mourn not the white-washed, sanitized version of a revolutionary figure that aligned with Communists, was part of a group branded as terrorists by Reagan, who continued to voice his opposition to Israel’s apartheid regime and illegal occupation of the West Bank and used armed resistance to fight apartheid in South Africa.
The way white people are exalting him across the political spectrum globally based on his national reconciliation work in South Africa post-apartheid (which did have major pitfalls for non-whites in particular) and erasing his revolutionary past and fight for equality across the globe shows just how ignorant of history they are and how incredibly myopic they are too.
White people are doing to Mandela what they’ve already done to Martin Luther King, Jr., and it makes me sick. If I see one more racist white liberal lionizing Mandela in a way that erases his revolutionary past so their facebook status about his death can serve as their “feel-good” justification of the day for their “liberalism,” I’m going to be sick. And don’t even get me started on the white American conservatives who are now lauding him even as Reagan demonized the ANC and Dick Cheney voted against a resolution that would have urged the South African apartheid government to remove Mandela from prison.
Don’t sanitize Mandela for your white comfort. He’s a hero in many regards, but maybe not for the reasons you might think based on the whitewashing he’s receiving in the media to hollow him out and make him into a puppet figure for racist white liberals and conservatives alike, just like MLK.
Have you ever felt a potential love for someone?
Like, you don’t actually love them and you know you don’t, but you know you could. You realise that you could easily fall in love with them. It’s almost like the bud of a flower, ready to blossom but it’s just not quite there yet. And you like them a lot, you really do. You think about them often, but you don’t love them. You could, though. You know you could.
The loneliest place on earth
is inside the heart
No one else
knows where it is
or how to get inside;
and not a soul
can find you
if you’ve wandered too far
and can’t find your way back out.
Sometimes it is the smallest thing that saves us: the weather growing cold, a child’s smile, and a cup of excellent coffee.
As time goes on, you’ll understand. What lasts, lasts; what doesn’t, doesn’t. Time solves most things. And what time can’t solve, you have to solve yourself.
I am losing precious days. I am degenerating into a machine for making money. I am learning nothing in this trivial world of men. I must break away and get out into the mountains to learn the news.